Friday, July 21, 2006


The same three of us were having farewell gathering for each other today. To mark the end of our slacking life and the beginning of our embarkation on University life - the journey with no return.

The presence of you guys have been meaningful to me, and have definitely inspired me and coloured my life. You all showed me what is behind impossibilities, what is love, what is determination, and together, what is teamwork. We worked hard together, enjoyed together, got sentimental together, and dreamt together. Let's just hope that our beautifully-woven dreams can come true, in this imperfect world and political system. You guys also showed me what is 君子之交,淡淡如水。Words are unnecessary between 君子. It's the presence that matters.

For now, we shall fly high, soar as high as we can, learn as much as we can, then bring it back to this country, and share our stories with each other. Do not forget our 约定 four years later.

(a song I learnt in a 'Zhuang Yuan' camp in Std 5. )
虽然短短相聚 又要分开
虽然长长思念 又如此无奈
我会默默祈祷 痴痴地等待
珍重再见 别伤怀
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My Coaching Pictures

First show at SJK Choong Wen

Demonstration about tabling time according to your priorities. The oranges symbolise the most important things in your life. Then we add in pebbles, followed by sand, which symbolise the less important things. Without pebbles and sand, your life will still seem full.

Hypnotising the kids?! Yes. But it has a better name. Called Progressive Muscular Relaxation.

The elated us at the end of the second primary school workshop.

The relative day. Know why? Take a look at the participants: (Clockwise from left) Set's cousin (orange shirt), Set's cousin's friend, Set, Yin How, Set's youngest brother, Set's younger brother, Mei Sheng's brother, my brother, me, and Mei Sheng.
Oral Presentation came to use here.
Group at work.

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Thanks dad.
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Friday, July 14, 2006

7 days around Malaysia

7 days around Malaysia

060706-090706n was at Penang and Sungai Petani of Kedah to visit my brother. It's essentially a trip to get back to nature, past and present.

An escape tunnel that's so tiny. My brother has a height of 130+ cm.

This is where that tunnel leads to. Another vertical tunnel which reminded me of the scene in Poseidon.

Something guys like... regardless of age.

I once left my name on the sandy beach of Penang. Only to know that it will be erased eventually..

An ancient temple. Another archaelogical museum in Lembah Bujang which didn't received as much publicity as it should have. It's showcases artefacts and ruins of Lembah Bujang which was a international trading centre back in 5th to 14th AD.

From left: guys: My brother, my brother's girlfriend's brother, my youngest brother. Girls: me and my brother's girlfriend. This is the reward we got after visiting the museum. Waterfall that belongs to us and solely to ourself. (As there wasn't any other tourists there.)

It's really cold to be splashed like that! But somehow we just decided that we would take turns to be splashed. Haha.. So zi4-nue4..

I like this pic a lot. Feel like submitting it to the tourism board haha.

Somehow it was my brother who won the world cup. Not Italy..


110706-130706 was spent at the Cameron Highlands together with MS, YH and YT. I overestimated Cameron's temperature and actually brought no long pants there. Only shorts and skirts. And no I didn't bring a jacket too. Yes you can laugh at me for my stupidity. I got my retribution too, from nature. Was freezing and shivering uncontrollably all the way. And thanks to you who sacrificed to lend me your only jacket, to prevent me from being pricked in the jungle, chilled in the wind. And sorry to you who had to received the retribution because of my carelessness, and to bring back a dirty smelly jacket.

The darkness in the jungle of Gunung Jasar. You see absolutely nothing without a torch light at night. And I actually suggested the idea of NIGHT jungle trekking without knowing what a trekking is. We had to walk on all four in the forest carpetted with wet leaves, slippery roots, and fallen branches.

"Respect the jungle" says Nesh the tour guide. Something that I find it very meaningful. This is because nature nurtures us. Without trees, there wouldn't be oxygen for us. Without roots, there wouldn't be unflooded areas for living. And there's more from nature that we should be grateful about.

This is taken without flash near the peak. The trip turned out particularly scary when one of the two torchlights we had (to be shared among 5 persons) burnt out halfway during the climbing. This meant that we had very limited light, so we had to rely heavily on the sense of touch, as well as faith. But we made it through anyway.

The rewards after night trekking. Unrestricted panoramic view of Cameron Highlands. This is the town of Tanah Rata. This picture was taken at a temperature of 15'c. The wind was so strong that you could actually hear it blowing. And we had some fun time screaming to Titiwangsa mountain ranges to listen to our own echos.

We challenged yet another mountain the next morning - Gunung Brinchang, the tallest mountain in Cameron, standing at 6666 feet. This is a pic of the mobile mist BELOW us. It is being blown away so quickly that we could see it visibly moving. Pardon me for the blur picture taken as I couldn't help shivering under that temperature. But the view we got here at the watch tower was really superb and worthy of the chill we had to experience.

On one side of the watch tower we could see full moon...

And on the other side, the sun was rising.!Though that round red thing wasn't visible due to the thick mist.

Finally I got to see how a pitcher plant looks like.

At Rose Centre.

A white rose bloomed so big that it's impossible to be true.

My foot! at the end of 10+ hours of trekking and uncountable hours of walking around for hotel hunting and for jalan-jalan. All for not wearing the appropriate footwear.








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Thursday, July 13, 2006

2nd decade

No matter how much I tried to pull back time, time still forced me to step into the world of twenties.

Those who are already in that world welcomed my entrance.

Those who are still teenagers farewelled my exit.

Thanks to everyone who place this date in their heart. Thanks to everyone who wish me via gifts, phonecalls, sms-es, taggies or in their hearts.

Thanks to the girl from hair saloon for cycling all the way to my house to give me birthday cakes. Thanks to the girl I knew in driving school who peeped at my license to look for my birth date.

Thanks to you who wanted to sing me birthday song but somehow didn't sing it. Thanks to you who sang me the birthday song via sms. Thanks to you who gave me personalised sms or beautiful forwarded sms. Thanks to you who sent me birthday sms even though you were just nearby me.

Thanks to you who remembered my birthday by linking it with the date of release of Pirates of the Caribbean 2. Thanks to you who somehow can just remember my birthday.

Thanks. I really appreaciate it.

And now's my wish for my 2nd decade: I wanna be a better person. To be more peaceful at heart, to live life simpler, and to be more sincere.

For now, birthday's over, it's time to enter uni. And once uni life starts, holiday will be over. And the life process will continue itself like a single-journey bullet train. Uni, then work, then family, kids, work all the way till retirement. There wouldn't be anymore huang1fei4 times for me when I can just go on truly carefree holidays like now.Until I retire. Oh how much do I look forward to retirement! And is it ke3bei1 to be looking forward to reitrement at the age of 20?

Oh maturity, do enter my world, and enlighten me to view the world with ping2chang2xin1. Not excitement nor fear, not confusion nor indulgence.

I await for thy arrival.

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Monday, July 10, 2006

My World Cup

The face I love: Klose.
His face writes the word - sincerity.

The captain I love: Beckham.
Oh my god he's so handsome on the field! And only on the field.

The goalkeeper I love: Ricardo.
He's born for that job.

The man I hate: Crouch.
He looks like a lousy stilt walker. Always seems as if he's gonna trip and fall on the slightest touch.

The man I loveD: Christiano Ronaldo.
Used to think that he's good-looking and capable. Until I saw his ill-temper.

The man I sympathise with: Michael Owen.
He's back to England even before he has the chance to showcase his talents.

The name I love: Simao.
Can't stop myself from imagining the action of tearing fur evertime I see or hear his name.

The coach I love: Germany's.
So young yet so good.

The coach I hater: France's.
What's with his idiotic actions?

The team I love: Argentina.
They should be the one seen on 10/7, if not because of the injury of the goalkeeper.

The shirt I like: Germany's.
Simple with elegant details. That's the way shirts should be man.

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Monday, July 03, 2006

Wan Xin needing help here

Any kind parents willing to take up a wardian? I need to sell myself to Singaporean adult(s) desperately.

I need a guardian to authorise my medical procedures should I got so unluckily injured that I need to undergo surgery.
The guardian should be present at the hospital to give consent for surgery in times of need.
I need this guardian till July 13 next year, before I turn 21.

In addition, I need 2 sureties to execute my tuition grant agreement, to ensure that I agree to be bonded to work in Singapore for 3 years in return for the subsidised education.
The sureties should be between 21 to 65 years old, and not be discharged bankrupts.
The execution of Tuition Grant agreement would be on 15th Sept 2006 (Friday)for me, at 9.30am to 1pm, at Hall C, South Spine Blk 4, Basement 3, NTU.

I would really appreciate if any of your parents are willing to take up these hideous responsibilities. 在家靠父母,出外靠朋友。Friend, I am depending on you now. I have no relative in Singapore to help me with this. That's why I desperately need your help. I promise I won't run away from my Tuition Grant bond haha. But I will be able to understand too, if you are unable to. As I have said earlier, they are hideous things that MOE, NTU, IRA have came up with to make my life difficult. (Though I do understand the rationale behind it la)

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Sunday, July 02, 2006

It was totally warm in the afternoon these few days.

Even the heat of the evening sun could easily melt you away.

Was forced to cancel all my jogging plans.

And well, after those scorching days,

tonight, suddenly I can hear the wind whipping the lanterns at the balcony.

And I can smell something coming.

The Rain.

Long awaited.

And true as my prediction,

It came rolling and thunder loud. (Even though there wasn't any thunder)

I suddenly remembered that I left my sports shoes outside at the balcony as I never expected it to rain.

I rushed out, saved my sport shoes, and got myself drenched during that few seconds.

But somehow I felt really cheery.

Because it was a tiny wish came true!

Looking at the lanterns being blown up high, listening to the doors being banged by the wind, feeling the wind that gushed past my body,

I felt glad.

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Saturday, July 01, 2006

Low threshold for pain

Low threshold for pain

I must have been so bored to dig up my 2003 newsweeks and re-read them. Ok. Not that I have read all of them in the past. But well..

There's this issue on pain. It states that we have two kinds of nervous systems. One in charge of transmitting normal sensation, like holding a piece of paper; while the other one is in charge of high threshold sensation, just like touching a pot of boiling water. But sometimes, after a severe disease, it is possible for these two kinds of systems to get confused, such that walking on normal floor can bring extreme pain to the person.

I guess a huge emotional upheaval can produce the same effect too. I guess my nervous systems are now tangled up too. I can get tears at the rim of my eyes by listening to sad music (like this one I put on my blog), watching sad movies, or get depressed after a trip is being cancelled, or even when Argentina lost the match.

Oh yes. How can Argentina lose? How can its goalkeeper get injured? How can this happen? Argentina wouldn't have lost during the penalty kicks if it wasn't forced to use its reserved goalkeeper! But nvm..

And oh well, any people here want to go to Tioman for a short getaway and gathering before we embark on our university life? Tioman is considered to be one of the ten best islands in the world! It's a 3D2N holiday for RM290, including accomodation, meals, boat transfer for both ways, and a boat tour. We should go on weekdays to avoid surcharge. Interested people please leave a comment under this post, not at the tag. Thankie!

And this quote is replaying in my mind more often than ever: Every exit is an entrance to another world. It's a quote I saw at a hospital of the university that I am not gonna enter. And I am gonna use it to motivate myself and cheer me up to enter my destined university.

I think I should get out of this self mob and be optimistic for the possibilities that lie ahead of me, instead of perceiving them as uncertainties. Life is 10% what happened to us and 90% how we deal with it. This has been my favourite quote since the age of 12. It's a quote found on the pen holder Min Jey gave me during my 12 yr old bday. And now, I will try my best to fully utitilise my 90% power and make my university life as best as it can be! NTU isn't that bad, HSS too. At least right now I already have a professor from psychology department who always take time out to answer my endless querries. Even on saturdays and sundays. I know it may be a tactic NTU adopted to attract more students, but well, at least I don't feel stranded now.

And magically, I feel more hopeful about my future now. After typing the previous paragraph. Oh well, life, whether it looks good or bad, may be really depended very much on your attitude. You can call things possibilities or uncertainties; descrive a phenomenon as magically or strangely. Sometimes just a minor switch in your attitude can produce a dramatic change. Like now. My change of attitude may seem abrupt, but it was what I truly feel when I pen down these thoughts. This is how powerful our attitude is.

Heaven or hell, it's up to us.

Even though for now, part of me still prefer to linger in the depressed mood, to mob about the premature termination of my Tioman trip, and the losing match of Argentina, and bemoan about depature with friends. :p

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