It is getting back to me. And it's getting worse. I am struggling with it, fighting as hard as I can, ocassionally drifted away by temptation, still I am not losing my determination to fight against it.
But somehow, it seems like I am losing out in every battle I fought.
Have been getting less and less enthusiastic about surfing blogs of friends, I admit. There's just too many things of the present to catch up with for now, than to squeeze time out to catch up with friends of the good ol' days. I am sorry. But you all are still alive and kicking in my memory, I promise. It's time like this sleepless night of mine, that I have the chance to switch on my laptop which I have just switched off barely 15 minutes ago, to stare at the blank 'online' list on msn, and decide to start reading blogs of dear friends. It's time like this sleepless night that I start thinking about things that I need not think too much about. It's time like this sleepless night that I have tonnes of free time but can never fill it with productive tasks. It's time like this sleepless night when I start remembering my favourite phrase before jc graduation: 'Will you miss me when a leaf falls?'
It's time like this...
Well, things are getting harder nowadays. May be they aren't hard. It's just that I have been working hard on it and nothing seems simpler. Everything just stays status quo. That's why it SEEMS harder. It's all about perception. And my mood has been swinging from one extreme to the other. Happy in the evening, sad and depressed when the night falls. What's wrong with me? May be it's just a freshie moodswing. A temporary depression that everyone has to go through when they are adapting into the university life. I will be fine. Yes I will be. FINE.