I am having this internal conflict between the present experience and the past attitude. It just feels weird to enjoy lectures. And I know this itself is W.E.I.R.D. But I can't control this.
Something I learnt today. If your behaviour is in conflict with your attitude, you most likely will change your attitude in order to ease the conflict. This is called cognitive dissonance. So now, enjoying lecture is my behaviour and hating lecture is my attitude. Hopefully my behaviour will win. Da~