I like my job. It's not a fantastic job at all, and the company isn't all fantastic. But it's a non-fantastic job in a non-fantastic company that gives you the strength and motivation to find meaning in everything you do, no matter how frivolous it may seem to be. It's in such situation that I understand how self-motivation works. Though the thought about quitting flashes across my mind often, I am more determined to not let situation change me. I will still learn in an environment with seemingly less steep learning curve. If I am capable of bigger tasks, it means that I should be able to do smaller tasks better. So I will strive on that. I want to live meaningful through work.
I like my current situation as well. It's totally un-fantastic situation that no one will dream for it. But since it has already landed in my life, I might as well treasure this experience. I will learn to not ask for help, but try to live with whatever I have. I believe it will be memorable. Perhaps in the future if I ever become famous and admired, I can write a memoir with this chapter of my life included. :)
Come what may.
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