Friday, November 16, 2007

又是一个凌晨,一个近早晨的凌晨。又是一个人,在黑暗中的一个人。又是在听音乐,想用音乐或课本催眠自己的方法。又是烦躁,因为睡不着而烦躁。真的累了。可不可以就让我睡?可不可以不要让休息变成人生最大的难题?我真的有在试着早睡早起。睡了五小时后考了试游了泳却睡不着,我还能怎么办?眼睁睁地看着天亮,听着鸟的叫声,看着窗外的树丛黑变青,看着壁灯熄灭,听着房外的脚步越来越多,茫然地用呆滞的头脑看着已看不下去的课本,我就只能这样吧。

身边应该不会有很多人像我,因为睡得着而开心吧。也应该不多人像我,每天一到夜晚就好像要打战似地忐忐忑忑吧。有多少人,因为抓得到睡意而兴奋地立刻上床,用尽一切方法让自己睡,考虑接受医生的建议是安眠药,脑子累到暴却怎样也昏不过去。真得很累,还要这样更是身心疲惫。可是疲惫的人却得不到休息。躺在床上,只是徒然。然后脑筋就会开始四面八方地想。

爸爸妈妈对不起,我真的有在试着早睡。我没有骗你们,我真得很努力。只是,凌晨的我,感到好无助...好想哭。

6 Comments:

Anonymous Anonymous said...

too stressed? try to relax each inch of muscle without thinking of exam while resting.music does help.

jia you!looking forward to post-exam outing ^^

4:36 PM  
Anonymous darling~ said...

oh my.. this is not good, dear~..
try not to think so much before u sleep.. try drinking some warm milk at night, it may help.. dun get too high or too stressed up before bedtime, put urself in a relax mood..
a suggestion from my roomie: try to do yoga if possible! just close ur eyes, take deep breathes, clear ur mind thoroughly and 静坐 for a while... it's effective! hopefully it'll have the same effect on u too.. =)
really hope ur problem will be gone soon!! all the best ya!! take lotsa care!! =) exam will be over in just a few days time, after which we can go scream our lungs out lee!! =D

12:59 PM  
Blogger w a n x i n said...

I know it's not good. Do you think I want it myself?

But I am sorry darling~, I can't seem to locate who you are, due to many darlings I gathered at different social contexts. *blushes* Tend to think that you are yy, but wonder if ur roomie really recommend yoga.

And 436 anon, are you sl or wp? Sounds like either one.

4:34 PM  
Anonymous yy said...

i'm yy! haha yes she really recommended that.. lolz.

7:09 PM  
Anonymous i definitely not one of ur darling~ said...

not me leh. i also experinced this kind of situation b4 when i was in form 5. wanna sleep early n wake up early but failed to do it. lied on the bed. closed my eyes but can't sleep. then when i know that it was the time to sleep, i started feeling very scared, scared i can't sleep again. this problem became very serious during exam period. then my dad sought help from a chinese physician. he said i 肝火盛-- that can cause difficulty to sleep well even though feeling very tired. then he recommended me to take a kind of chinese medicine. that one really helped leh. however, i lost the recipe of the medicine. nowadays, i did wad darling said in order to sleep well.

7:54 PM  
Anonymous i'm definitely not one of ur darlings~ said...

hehe

7:55 PM  

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