Before I launch into my long story, which I probably will withhold till May, I shall just quickly pen down what I learnt - something that didn't strike me till now.
I am humbled through my Japan trip. By listening to people's stories. Everyone has been through rough patches, like really rough patches. Everyone has been through the worst in their life. While I will not compare whose is worse, I can just say, I have learnt a lot about life, about my friends around, through listening to their stories. And through this, I am humbled. Awed by the complexity of life. A four letter word that presents so much to a human, and to each, his own. Kudos to everyone who has mustered the courage to walk through their downs, kudos to those who didn't have the courage but still walked through nonetheless. Thanks for your sharing, that I have gotten to learn a little more.
Meanwhile, cheers to great friendship formed during the conference!
Campaign song by Democratic Action Party
What the young has to say about the country.
What do young politicians have to say about Malaysia.
What a nominational day is like. HOT!
Idiot's guide to Malaysian election. For those who used to be politically apathetic.
Polling on a wedding day.
I didn't go back to vote. My dad wanted me to. Being bred in Singapore for so long, I realised I am acculturated into political apathy. Thoughts like 'who cares about election?', 'why purposely go back just to vote?' passed through my mind, or the thought about going home for voting didn't even pass my mind!
Now I am a little embarrassed by my such thoughts. Apparently the citizens of Malaysia have awaken, and actively took on the role of having a say in the national affairs. This year marked high rate of voting, even among the traditionally apathetic Chinese. Average voting rate is 70+%. For my hometown, it's 82%. I am sorry I contributed .0004% to the non-voters. I saw Yap at Boon Lay yesterday. He told me he was going home to vote. Then I had an internal debate if I should go home to vote too. Dad said it's an act to 'exercise your right for the well-being of others'. But I thought, I have Open House, and I have visitor from China coming, so I couldn't go home. And I didn't go home eventually. Now I am embarrassed by myself.
But yeah. Results have been truly stunning. From 20 seats in election 2004, the opposition parties have garnered up to 82 seats this year in the parliament! Amazing. I can feel the climate of change now. People are being wiser consumer of knowledge, more able to distinguish which are facts and which are claims by political parties. They are less able to be threatened by governmental's threat: 'Opposition wins and the country will sink into riots', 'Opposition wins and no Chinese in the parliament' etc. And such, opposition wins big time this round. In fact, the biggest victory since the nation's independence. The first time in history that Barison Nasional loses two third majority. And first time other than the Islamic party are oppositional parties governing states. And 5 states in all up to now: Kedah, Penang, Kelantan, Perak, Selangor. My state is in. In my town, oppositional party won too.
Was ultra surprised to see how many of my friends of the younger generation are concerned about the election. Look at the MSN nicknames and you find people commenting about it. Many were following up with the results. Even though we are all overseas. Cool! Yeah we should have a say in the country, and be concerned about the country. 毕竟，tanah tumpahnya darahku.
Hoping to get more news tomorrow. My dad must be real happy now. The time of change has come.
For news about Malaysian election:
http://malaysiakini.aizuikmal.com/ - for instant updates on election results
http://merdekareview.blogspot.com/ - instant updates in Chinese
http://www.malaysiatoday.com/ - more instant updates on election
http://www.sinchew-i.com/taxonomy/term/19 - includes commentary and detailed breakdown on results by each parliament and state seats in Chinese
For more enjoyment, this is for your entertainment.
But piglet looks so old with specs.
You guys don't see the times when I struggle. When I struggle, it's a lone struggle. No one is there, no one is there to talk to you, no one's there for you to hold on to. No one. Keep it to yourself dude! You are supposed to be managing all the problems yourself. Tough, cuz it's your choice.
You guys don't see the times when I experience self-doubt, when I wonder again and again if running for LCP was the right decision. During times when I struggle so badly among studies AIESEC and friends and emotions, you guys don't see it. You guys don't see the tears that flow. You guys don't see the sorrow and the anguish. It's all hidden, all under cover.
I look perfectly all fine. I have my flaws, so does everyone. So I am fine. And furthermore I am cheerful! I am optimistic! I am smart! So I am faring even better than the majority. SO I AM FINE. Yay dude! Good guess. Bad accuracy.
I feel like suffocating now. So many things tumbling down all at one go. Presentations, quiz, visa, EB selection, agm, year plan, transition. How long more can I go on? Is there anyone in the vicinity to help? I see my roommate sleeping so peacefully. Why the hell did I summon all these upon myself? I know adversities make us stronger. I know I will turn out fine and well and better. Now it is jsut very bad. Very very bad. I can't sleep I can't read I can't think. I am not as good as who you think I am. The night is getting colder, but I am still alone. Don't know what I am doing, why I am doing what I am doing, what I shall do next and how do I proceed on. I haven't even bathed yet and it's already 2am. Life is in a mess and so I am. Thought I have just tidied up my table but looking at it may be no. And tomorrow I am supposed to meet my teacher advisor talking about don't know what. Hell with impression management and looking professional. Now I am just the lost confused helpless clueless weak Wan Xin. Leave me alone! Help only if you are keen to.