讨厌这个虚伪的世界。If things don't work out with one person, you can think that it is something wrong between you and the person. But if everything started not working well on you, then you start to think if it is seriously you who has the problem. Feel helpless when things just KEEP ON not going well. Is it something in me? Have I changed that much? Have I started not being able to work well with people? What happened to me? Friendship is deteriorating, realizing there are more and more people I can't stand, whom previously I regard dearly as friends. Not sure if this is due to me knowing them better or me changing into a difficult person who stands no one. Helpless. Clueless. Confused. I might as well just bury myself in the books now.